Alive and kickin' in Seoul

Taken at 5am on Apr 5 2010, after a long evening out of bar-hopping and clubbing in Seoul.

Some said that I have gained much of weight since I moved away from Dubai. Just to let you know that I weigh even less than before. :) It is just this damn camera!

Ok, one good milestone for this year

I just (re)started to learn Spanish on my own. By the end of this year, I will have written at least one blog posting in Spanish!

Almost a year ago...

Almost a year ago.. or so, I was in the middle of desperately trying to figure out why I had to go through such turmoils in mind. Now all that time has passed and changes I have gone through, I still seem to attempt to forge a state of mind that I no longer feel intimidated by being alone. Mutiple times, I have tried to remind myself that I am much better off being single and independent.

Maybe the resilience comes as I truthfully move on from the complexity and dilemma that I have created in the past and definitely I am not there yet.

How many people have come and gone in my life? How much time do I need to understand this simple equation that I have ruthlessly let myself get stuck in another emotional hiccup, in spite of all the promises I have made to myself?

Not good, not good.

Update

I have been totally inactive on this blog for many months. Just for a little update,

1. I left Dubai as of end of November 2009 for good. I returned to Seoul, my hometown early December and am working for an IT service company as a strategist again. Life is alright. Not great but surely far from bad.

2. For past 12 months, I have gone through a series of relationship turmoils and this does not seem to end. I am forced by my own will and determination to put closure to this. I am better off being single and independent. Love is great but peace of mind is greater.

3. That said, I decided to focus on making my life fabulous again. No need to be glamourous but full of fulfillment and hopes. Lots of hobbies and self-development. That said, going to read a lot, learn a lot, and laugh a lot this year. Oh, one more thing, I am going to dive a lot.

4. I travel a lot for professional and person reasons. I continue to do so. I gotta catch up with various party scenes across Asia and California this year. Yeah gotta be fabulous. :)

5. My mind keeps reminding me that life is a constant battle. I want to change this. Won't happen right away, but I am sure someday soon I will be able to love myself and love my life again.

That's it. Oh, and I will come back to my blog more often. :)

Woo