I must be really crazy

Today I officially submitted a letter of resignation. The official adios to TECOM. The past 3 years was full of ups and downs, a crash course to a totally different culture and value system. I made quite a few great friends here, tried many new things in life and enjoyed my life in general. I have gone through multiple relationship turmoils. I have finally been to Cook Islands and New Zealand. I enjoyed the luxury of this working environment with a great deal of free time and enjoyed the luxury of the fancy Dubai economy.

But I am moving on. What I cannot put up any more is not about further career opportunity (which was indeed bad), not about financial compensation (which was ok), not about living in a muslim society (which was surprisingly acceptable). It was because of this total lack of motivation, caused by losing my self-esteem and letting myself drift across the battles that I was not supposed to win after all.

What's next? I don't know. People would say I must be crazy to leave this job. Especially without anything concrete for my next career move. I must really be crazy. Yes I might be really crazy, for myself and for my future.

I don't want to plan anything now. I am going to finish this glass of fine red and I will sing for a while for now. But tomorrow when I get up, I know for sure, I will do my damn best to find this reckless boy in me again, who was not afraid of hitchhiking across Canada, who was not afraid of any challenge.

Wish me a good luck!