Surge of emotions

I finally came back from a trip to Fujairah, on the East coast of UAE. The beautiful resort, great company, nice drive. Royal Beach Hotel was better than I thought, although it was a bit crowded by family with lots of noisy kids running around the pool all the time.

Well on the surface, it was a good trip. I wanted to see where I stand, how I was doing in my life. The weekend was full of emotions. Yet, talking about my past, how things have gone not so well. In fact, this drained me out a lot.

As they grow older and more experienced, some people get smarter in expressing their heart and sharing feeling with others. Me? Well I feel I am a baby out there on the beach being left out alone. More and more these days. The surge of emotions can come at any second and sweep me away from my own sentimental experiment.

I have been out there for past few weeks. The experiment that I haven't carried out before. It was like a roller coaster going into a dangerous circle. After a month, I only realised rushing into a certain state of feeling and emotions could only make things worse and put me in a unstoppable plunge.

Now feeling like going back to ground zero. feeling like falling off again.